Saturday, June 25, 2005
i hope my uni camps n sch semester starts really soon. i'm lyk rotting my flesh off my bones at home. haha i dunno wad i'm saying. but the bottomline is-i'm really bored. not dat i wasnt bored when i was still working but it's a different genre of boredom if u get wad i mean. bleahs. i'v sent in the application forms for the sports camp n hall camp so yah.. i hope all the fun ppl turn up n i hope ry n i will get to stay in a nice hall! wad's it with the weather anyway? *complains* it's lyk raining heavily, so nice n windy in the morning n early afternoon, den it starts to heat up towards the evening n night. i can feel my sweat glands slowly getting to work n filling my pores with tiny droplets of salty-tasting water JUST BY SITTING DOWN! i'm going to take a cold bath later :P
anw i was reading xiaxue's blog n i cldnt help laughing at some of the things she blogged abt. i dun really read her blog often (actually i dun really read any1's blog v often but when i do my readings, i do
mass reading as in i read everybody's blog n read all the posts dat i'v not read b4) so forgive me if i'm outdated. haha but i tot her post where she argued with a guy fren over whether or not SPG's nipples luk farny was hilarious esp cos they even drew nipples to illustrate their points. oh. i also think the part where xx used photoshop to "mould her boobs" is frankly v farny too. but seriously, i think they luk better after xx's "moulding". haha btw, i think i mostly agree with xx's point of view abt the SPG issue tho i think my main prob with "chloe" (we all noe her real name lah) is not with her morals but dat she din consider the repercussions, she nv tot abt how everything cld affect her family.
i mean, it's perfectly fine no matter wad kinda lifestyle ppl wan to lead, but i think bcos we'r interactive creatures, we shd at the very least, spare a thought for our family. not dat i'm a v family person, but i'd nv do anything to disgrace my parents. even if i go on sex romps every other day, i wld take great care to keep it under wraps so my parents.. no, so dat nobody wld find out. i dun think she intended her parents to find out abt the nude pics tho i think her parents r aware but disapproving of her behavior, so we shd all learn from her
unfortunate situation dat it's better to b discreet abt certain things dat may b too private to share with every1 on the net. shdnt we? :) yq msged me recently n we talked alittle abt it n she's v shocked dat it has stirred up such a big commotion. (she tot "chloe" has made enuf waves in sch. well, apparently not.) shall stop talking abt it.
june sch hols is coming to an end.. my bro is still glued to his gameboy day n nite despite my mum's efforts to try to get him to study alittle everyday. my fridge is pasted with little loving notes saying
"son, your gameboy is on the table. pls study at least 1hr everyday. rem to eat lunch if not give me back the money. love, mummy" haha i find it q farny cos if my mum wans my bro to study, she shd just lock the gameboy in her cupboard cos i havent seen him doing anw work at all for the past.. 2-3 weeks? mayb dat's just boys. i dunno. when sch reopens he dowan to study also cannot alr. but personally i dowan the hols to end cos it means the start of the common tests week :( confused? haha i dun have common tests to sit for but sum1 else have mah.. yah lor
u said u missed the 1st few months dat we were tog. i asked u wad abt it dat u miss but u say u dunno. somehow i found dat comment disturbing. i dunno if u dowan to tell me or it's really cos u really dunno. rem u once said "let's b true n unreseved for one another"? is it cos u sian diao alr? :( recently u'v been saying stuffs lyk i dun hafta worry abt u doing foolish things if i leave wanna u when i find sum1 who's gd to me n blah. mayb i'm reading too much into it but just wan to say dat right now in dis moment n for the past 7-8mths, i only love u. i meant it when i said i dun anyhow lyk ppl easily n dat it doesnt matter how nice sumbody else is towards me if i really dun lyk dat person. if u ever wan to leave me, u can let me noe too. i wldnt hold u back either cos i also wan u to b happy.
mayb it's cos i'm ur 1st gf so mayb u dun really noe wad u wan at the beginning. but i think after the 1st relationship (if it does come to an end), usually the 2nd relationship dat ppl go into wld b better in a way cos u alr noe wad u lyk n dun lyk abt a person. i noe cos dat's the case for me. i found wad i lyk in u n u dun possess any of the negative traits dat i noe i cannot accept. mayb 1 day u'll realise dat i'm not the 1 for u but i hope i'll leave u beautiful memories while we'r still tog cos i noe no matter wad happens in the future, i will always rem the times we'v shared. being tog for abt 6mths isnt a short n also isnt a long time but it's alr enuf to fill me with lots of happy recollections of the things we'v said n done, the places we'v been to. my hp inbox is bursting with msgs u'v sent me over the past few mths cos i lyk to read them over n over again when i'm not with u n just b contented with the unexplanable feeling of
xing fu-ness dat comes over me. thinking of u makes me smile. dat's y when i'm out with my frens or even when i'm doing nth at home, i will smile to myself. really love u lots dear :)
random thoughts at 2:59:00 AM
